I have such a conflict when it comes to the dates of the events of last August and September. You see, I don't really know what day her spirit left her earthly shell and went to be with Jesus. That day I will probably never know. I know it was in the last days of August, but not the specific day. I know the day we found out she was gone. August 31. And then there is September 2nd. The day her body was taken from mine. I have a hard time calling it her "birth" day. Her spirit was given to the Father before this day. So when people asked when my daughter died or when she was born, I feel like there is a five minute explanation. When the last of the month rolls around, what day can I really call hers? I have struggled with this from the beginning. The lone singular date on her stone even bothers me. "September 2, 2009" does not tell the full story, but just part of it. I hated that was all I could put on there and as generations pass and some one looks at that stone years from now, that is all they will know.
I have tried to make peace with this and realize it is ok to call that her day. But it has been hard. As all the "one year" marks came and went last month, I think I finally have decided that the 2nd will be her day. I will always remember August 31, but the 2nd of every month is what I have counted as the time passed for how many months she has been gone. So, from now on...the 2nd's are for Shyla.
To mark this "2nd" I would like to do my first ever GIVEAWAY!!! This months giveaway is for a copy of the first book that really touched my heart in the days and months after my loss. I'll Hold You in Heaven by Jack Hayford gives us reason to not just hope, but to know where our babies are and that we WILL be with them again! I will also been sending a few gifts designed specifically for the person who wins including a candle with your child's name, a pink and blue ribbon for October 15th and a few other goodies!
For one entry, be a follower of this blog (just make that your comment).
For another entry, share with me the first book that really was an ecouragement to after your loss.
For a third entry, share the giveaway on your blog or facebook and just comment letting me know you have done so. A winner will be chosen one week from today (Saturday, October 10).