A Different Kind of Healing

God healed Jakin's heart today, but not the way we were wanting.

I'm saddened beyond words to let you all know that today, between 3:00 and 4:00pm our Jakin went to be with Jesus.

We met with our pediatric cardiologist and after having a hard time finding a heartbeat, one was finally located, but was only beating at 40 bpm.  She cried and prayed with us and told us and sent us to the high risk OB I have been seeing.  As soon as we arrived, we were ushered to another ultrasound room and by the time the ultrasound got started, no heartbeat could be found at all. 

He went over our options with us and assured us there was nothing we could or should have done differently.  He told us repeatedly that this was a very, very rare outcome.  He made sure we knew it had nothing to do with the reasons that Shyla went to Heaven and that the liklihood of it happening in future pregnancies is pretty much non-exsistant.  He answered our questions and sent us home.

We talked to my local OB on the way home and have been instructed to arrive at L&D around 8:30 in the morning to be induced.  I am not far along enough to require another c-section, so I will be medically induced and the Dr said Jakin would be born between 12 and 36 hours later.  He warned the medication they will be using will make me feel "crappy" with fever and possibly nausiated.  We will be taking the laptop and I will update as I can.

We ask for prayer tonight and in the days to come.

Please pray that Ethan's heart is protected and that we parent him like we should and answer his questions the way God wants us to.  He is 3 1/2 and has now experienced the death of two siblings in a matter of just over 14 months.

Please pray delivery goes smoothly and quickly with no other complications.

Please pray for our families and friends that have walked and are walking this path with us.  They are amazing.

God is with us.  We know it.  We have walked this road once before.  God's peace has already started to show evident.  Today was a good day in Heaven.  Angels rejoiced as Jesus carried Jakin into the Lord's presence and his heart was healed. 

Ecclesiastes 7:1 says "A good name is better than precious ointment; and the day of death than the day of one's birth."  Today was better than tomorrow.  The word also says that God weeps with those that weep.  We know He is in tears with us now as we prepare to deliver our third child to His arms and in the days ahead as we plan and bury one of our babies for the second time.

We love you all and appreciate all of your kind words and prayers.

Pediatric Cardiologist

We see the pediatric cardiologist today at 2:45 est!  Be praying for Jakin's heart to be in perfect rhythm.  Our God CAN do this!  He is able!  I will post an update as soon as I get back around a computer.

Also, please be praying for a little girl named Briley in your prayers.  Her mommy and I have very similar histories as we both had baby girls pass away in utero at the same gestation due to the Factor V Leiden.  Briley is their rainbow.  Briley was born a little early in August I believe and is having heart surgery today to open up some constricted arteries coming from her heart.  Mommy and Daddy know that all things are possible with God and know the power of prayer, so they have requested prayer for their sweet girl.

Update on Jakin

Tuesday we went to the pediatric cardiologist and got some good news. 

*The fluid around his heart had already started to decrease!
*She didn't think that he actually has SVT, but on closer examination, things the problems are more atrial...which in her words are "generally easier to correct".
*Jakin's heart rate had started to slow.  It would drop to 123 bpm for a little while then jump back up to 274 bmp.  It went back and forth during the whole visit, which is better than the 284 bpm we saw the entire visit both Thursday and Friday.

The Dr. told me to take 1/2 the dose of the Propanolol and added Digoxin.  I'm really tired and get dizzy sometimes, but otherwise, I have peace about this.  I just know, deep down inside, that he is healed and will be ok.  Keep praying for our little guy!