Friday, July 6, 2012

This Space

It has been a while since I have written in this space.  Their space.  I can tell more healing has taken place, but at the same time I miss writing here about my children.  I've moved our family/homeschooling/life happenings blog HERE and have been writing there more.  Following along if you'd like.

Ethan will start his Kindergarten year in a matter of weeks and I am blessed to be able to homeschool him another year.  I've started working with our adoption agency as a home study provider a few months ago and I love it.  I love meeting all the families and hearing their stories.  Not surprisingly, a lot of them have endured the heartache of loss and/or infertility. 

Our file is now in Seoul, Korea.  It left the US May 24th and we are now officially waiting for our referral.  I've kind of settled in for a long wait, but who knows, like I've said before, timelines really don't mean anything :) 

Shyla's days are quickly approaching.  On Monday, it will have been 3 years since we were going to have a daughter.

I could write more about what grief feels like at this point, but it's hard to put into words.  Certain things still take my breathe away and I can't believe how triggers can bring you back to a place like they can.

Samuel's birthmother email me not long ago and sent me pictures.  He is so beautiful.  He is experiencing some healh problems and could really use some prayers.

Well, how is that for a modge podge post?  I feel so connected to so many who have followed along our journey and still struggle with having a separate blog for our grief, but over all, I feel as if it was still the right thing to do.

I hope all my readers (if you're still out there!) are doing well and thank you for your continued support!


Caroline said...

Always in my prayers & praying extra for Samuel. Thinking of you & remembering Shyla with you
{{{ Hugs }}} <3

Kelly @ Sufficient Grace Ministries said...

Hey Mattie...just sending love. Definitely will pray for baby Samuel. You have walked through so much, my friend. Looking forward to seeing you soon! Love to you!

Holly said...

i love you Mattie!!

Esther Joy said...

Just checked out your grief blog. Guess it caught my eye because once you've experienced deep grief, I think it's like being admitted to a club that you never asked to be a member of, but were inducted into it anyway.